The Truth

After much enlightenment from Alicia, I m beginning to see some light to the whole senario. . . I was supprised xxx told u that he's sad? (tho i can't be bothered to know actually)

The truth is I used to be very closed to XXX when i was much younger during my secondary school. regardless during band, during recess, during class, I'd stick to him. BUT I guess i learnt to be independent during my ITE and NS. Hence I am not going to stick/rely to/on anyone besides my God. I just wana do well in my own instrument and try to excel in it.

But i guess you guys dunno him too well, From my observation. He's the sort that will only be nice to you when he needs you, and can throw u far away when he doesn't, and when u need him, hes no where to be found.

Although I guess its kinda sad about not being able to be real close friends again (like durning secondary sch). But I decided, acquaintances are fine with me. I'd try (try onli) to be more open to people. but i have to admit, i m more of a introvert kinda person. no use trying to force an introvert to become extrovert

I have decided not to run away anymore. But I'd try to stay away from xxx as in not too close cos I have fear of close contact too. =)

//People always ask me, why did i only join spsb in my 2nd year, the truth is, i tot xxx was gonna to join in yr 1. hence to avoid. i did not join. but in the end, he join in 2nd yr too. . . i was like so SHOCKed when xxx appeared before me in spsb. AND I was horrified when he came and massaged my shoulders.